Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
STOP right now and read no further if you came here expecting or needing "Christmas cheer". THAT is not what this blog entry is about. Also STOP if you don't care for my opinion on things, for in this case... it IS about me.
I had a weekend that seemed to have MORE than its fair share of disappointment. In one case the disappointment [ the worst one of the weekend ] came from out of the blue. I do not think it was in any way "planned" or even for that matter, meant to do the damage it did. In the 2nd case I could see it coming, but with hope springing eternal, had prayed for a different outcome. The third case involved a remark that was innocuous by itself, but the physical reaction that followed it was rather shocking [ not to mention infantile ] .
So I spent some time this weekend in self reflection concerning the above listed moments. One tends to do this in ones more "seasoned" years, rather than to take everything at face value & spaz out or ???
These reflections [ at least at first glance ] lead me back to a conclusion that I have come to many times over the last few years: The more we open our hearts to someone[s], the more we enable them to hurt us. Seems simple, right? Wrong. There are numerous layers to that conclusion, some of which I am contemplating even as I'm typing. The first & most obvious would be that to be hurt less, close up ones heart. Then doesn't that solution lead to its own "hurt" ?
Hmmmmmmm ,,,,, much contemplation ahead to say the least. I felt a need to share this, or at the very least to write it out. It doesn't make the disappointment disappear, but it does allow a certain amount of clarification at least. And so it goes ,,,,,,,
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
I'm thinking that probably the bathrobe was new also , again SOOO 1950's. And so it goes.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
I have thoughts of refusing to "give her away". When the minister says " Who gives this woman to be married?" I have imagined saying "Um, excuse me but I've thought it over & since I waited MANY years to even HAVE a "daughter", I want to keep her ! " I mean, what's the worse that could happen anyway? Nervous laughter, giggles ,,,, until they realized that I am not laughing ? Of course I would be torn asunder between the Bride and her Mother ,,, but then again, all those people gathered, just hold my funeral & get it over with.
Oh it's lunacy I know, but a part of me [ not a small part btw ] really does not want to give Sarah away ,,,, that which took so long to obtain must now be given away. So, since I can feel my heart starting to break even now [ again, not in a little way ... ] I have decided I must concentrate on the times that she was less than "perfect". The times when I KNEW she must be acting like her Mother or her real Dad's family, as MY contributions to her raising were not in evidence. And there HAVE been a few of those moments in the last 17 years or so ; - )
I have actually come to like the young man that I am "giving" her to,,,something that did not happen overnight. Due to some past history I did not trust David right away. [ Said history was nothing that he did btw. ] Over time he has made me laugh [ always a good thing ] , stood by Sarah in her most trying times and most importantly ,,, he has convinced my heart that his heart truly loves her. They are building a life together ,,, and it's time to let her go ,,, time to give her away.
So this coming Saturday, some fifty hours from now, I will walk her down the isle of that church, her all dressed in fluffy white, as gorgeous as she's ever been .... and I will "give away'"that which was never really mine to begin with. I just wanted to think she was mine, for a while, for just a little while. I will utter the words that must be uttered and place Sarah's hand into David's hand. Then I will sit down and see how good this old Director's acting skills really are ,,, I will hold a look of dignity and reserve ,,, while inside I will be struggling to ,,,,,,,
~ I Love You Sarah Elizabeth ~
~ Now and Always ~
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
including my neck of the woods.
I'm so sick and tired of the Sarah Palin's amongst us I could literally vomit. There's a local political race going on [ with much to be decided today ] that's also making me ill. How FEW brains does it take to see that if a labor union wants a current 'boss" out and his opponent elected in his place [ said opponent has publicly stated his desire to turn the over time hours back in the control of the labor union ], that something is amiss here ? Duh !
Is the "winner" of any political chat REALLY the one who can slam his fist louder against a table and yell "Well, by God I know what I'm talkin' about & that's that by God !!! " Where is reasonable intelligence ? Common sense isn't common anymore.
I apologize for the rambling here. Idiocy in its various forms is always upsetting, but especially when it's advertised in such a blatant manner. Give me a break.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
I put this pic up because I feel like this pic looks = "O boy, what a lfe,,I'm just sayin..." Nothing horribly amiss but struggling a bit to stay even close to on top of things. Wanna just go to bed & stay there a few months or so. Ever had those days ???
So Jeannie Darlin' your Great-Great Uncle sympathizes with you today, but like you Sweet Girl ... I know that we aren't in these "O boy" places too long,,,,there are always more invigorating days ahead.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
On Sunday, August 15th through a series of VERY unexpected phone calls & circumstances, we now have an addition here at 4998 Noble. He arrived with a name, but since he is only "one" year old [ or there-abouts ] we're changing his name. If you know us, by now you know that most would refer to this little guy as a "dog" & we are his "owners". In MG speak he is a new family member & we are his care-takers. He is the same breed as Taylor [ the "senior partner in this firm" as Taylor has told the "new kid" many times ] although the new arrival looks much more like this breed than Taylor does. [ That will change somewhat after the first professional grooming on 10/7 . ] This little guys new name is "Paulie" ,,, after Saint Paul & comes from Paul's letter to the Philippians, chapter 4, verse 11: " Now I speak in respect of want: for this I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content."
Paulie was apparently born into rather rough circumstances & ours is [ at least ] his 4th home in his young life, yet his attitude & temperament is joy-filled & exuberant. Now some might attribute that to him being young, just a "pup" so-to-speak, but not all would maintain the outlook that Paulie has, young or not so young, especially with all that he's been through. Our circumstances can take a toll on us, can't they ? Sometimes shaping us & making us into something that we neither desired nor thought at all possible, if we let them. T'is true the saying "Life will make you bitter or better ". The choice of course is up to us when all is said & done, bitter or better. Paulie has not turned bitter [ I can't speak as to whether he is "better" as I've only known him a few days ]. Each & every day he is warming up to us & trusting us more,,, God only knows what he's experienced in his young life, but whatever it might have been, it has not made him bitter.
One of my current prayers is that even if I cannot become "better' today [ & that should be the goal, right ? ] ...PLEASE don't allow me to become bitter. Sometimes that's the "best" we can do on any given day,,, not to become bitter when better doesn't appear to be an option. So first off today I will TRY to become a better me but if for some reason that seems unattainable then please, Please, PLEASE, prevent bitterness from taking over my life. In the simplest of terms... " Lord, please help me to at least be like Paulie ,,, in whatsoever state I am in, therewith to be content. " Amen? Amen.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
~ Amity Daze / Alumni Weekend 2010 is over, save for the wrap-up meetings. It was a good weekend overall, even with the "chicken monsoons" that hit JUST as the Camelot Choraleers were beginning the selling of their chicken BBQ's. They still did okay, esp. with Mike Feldbauer doing "curb service" so that people did not have to get out of their vehicles unless they wanted to. Mike would run to their car, ask them how many BBQ's they wanted, come back into the tent, tell the workers the # needed then run the order back to the costumers vehicle, get the money,,,, and go for the next order. He was drenched by the time the BBQ was over. Had to go home and change his clothes before we could set up for the Community Awards and Choraleer concert. And that was just Friday afternoon & evening. Saturday and Sunday were also very full days, with exhaustion setting in by/during Sunday morning. And so it goes ,,,,,,,
~ Old friends : T'was nice last weekend seeing some friends we hadn't seen in a while, especially [but not limited to ] the three Harris's. Keith Harris owned Harris Hardware here in Belmont back in the day, and his three children [ not children anymore ] were here this past weekend = Owen, Holly and Steve. We graduated with Steve form good ol' BCS back in 1972. ALWAYS good to see "Hair" ... seems like the years just melt away.
~ Rod McKuen : Whilst looking around in the attic last week [ for the rummage sale at Belmont Central during Amity Daze ] I came across some of my old books. A few of which are by the poet Rod McKuen. My, oh my, the memories that brings back to mind. I had one of his books in my office, but since finding the attic books, I have begun re-reading his writings. It is definitely something from the late '60's and early 70's and I still enjoy them. I have one or two of his records also. I can't take an overload of his writings, as they can be a bit depressing, but some things he's written have stuck with me for nigh onto 40 years. I can quote them from memory [ no small feat as we become more seasoned with the passing years! ] Expect some quoting from Rod McKuen on this blog in the near future.
~ My Dear 'O Meredith called a few minutes ago and is heading to Rochester with her Dad. His "beeper" is going off on his pace-maker, so that means the battery needs to be replaced. His last battery replacement was 5 years ago. Mr. McNinch [ Bob ] is 91 years old I believe, and this is his umpteenth pace-maker ,,, and God only knows how many batteries he's had replaced over the years. What a guy! Both he and his lovely wife Beth are worth their weight in gold.
~ And that is all for now. Enough of an update. Onward & upward as they say. I will attempt to put VERY brief updates on here every few days, just so those who might be interested in such things can be assured I'm still a ROUND [ toooo round btw! ]. I'm outta here .......
!!! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
My Dad hated snakes. My brothers hate[d] snakes. I hate snakes. So now I am asking myself the following question: If I can overcome my fear of birds,,, of flying 35,000 feet above the earth in a "tin can",,, and of numerous other fears & phobias ,,,,, why of WHY can't I get over my overt f-e-a-r of snakes ? I have some inner thoughts on this [ biblical in nature ], but I doubt it would account for all of my inner desperation over those slimy, sneaky, slithering "thangs".
I will admit that there has been improvement on my part. Years ago when we first moved up here if I saw a snake,,,,, I was half way down the road of this hill before I even considered stopping. Today I stepped back about 15 feet and just stood there. Watching. Waiting. Willing it to slither away. [ It didn't ].
I have named him "Curly" for a couple of reasons:  H e was curled up [ I prefer curled to coiled as coiled implies could strike at any moment and KILL ME, which I'm rather sure was not the case ] and  It helps to name things, humanize them, making them seem friendlier and less threatening.
I will now go hop on the treadmill with about 3.5 days worth of work to accomplish today and this evening. [ "Amity Daze are coming,,,, Amity Daze are coming ! " ] I will try to focus on the many duties of this day, giving as little thought as possible to Curly... dear ol' Curly,,,cute little [ ready to strike & strangle me ] Curly.
Wanna bet after the mail arrives, which door I use to go get the mail ? The garage door [ which means having to walk by ol' Curly's spot ] OR the front door [ avoiding the Curly spot by a wide margin ] ?
And so it goes ,,,,,,,
!! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Try as I may, I can hardly control my ANGER at OUR country for allowing such an avoidable tragedy as this to occur. I care not whether it's a Democrat OR a Republican or whatever "brand" ,,, those who have said and keep saying " Less government intervention" and "Less Regulations all around" need to answer for their OVERT INSIPIDNESS !!!
Friday, June 4, 2010
The above picture is how I feel right now. Have put on weight and am hating me. I know, I KNOW that is NOT the right attitude to have, but isn't the truth suppose to set us free? [ We all know that the Truth does = with a capital T ! ] And before you assume anything, the weight did not go on and stay on due to Hawaii. I stayed right under control until the very last couple of days there. Then I got as little "cocky" and it's been DOWNhill and UPscale ever since.
I must try harder. Work harder. Exercise harder. And EAT LESS, especially later in the day.
The choice is mine, just as it is yours each and every day. I have failed me and ME is NOT happy about that. Period.
JUST SO YOU KNOW ~~~~~~~
!!! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
1.] Let the picture speak for itself, read what you will into it.
2.] Allow you to drip with anticipation whilst you await the next post.
3.] Give some thought to exactly WHAT should be the topic of the 100th post.
!! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Good Morning. As far as I can tell we are about halfway home. Flew all night, landing in LA at exactly the scheduled time of 5:20am PST. I am writing this around 7:30am current time [ which would be 10:30am EST ,,, I think ]. Flight was long or so it seemed with only darkness to "see" out the window. We did sleep a little so that helped.
We have a long layover here in LA = 6 hours, but I would rather have that then to be too rushed. We've been to STARBUCKS and had some coffee, wandered through some shops and are not sitting for a bit so that I could contact y'all.
Patti ,,, I thought of you last night. For some odd reason both the take-off AND the landing this time freaked me out a bit. Had we not slowed down when we did for the landing I was about to " scream like a girl " . Mike looked at me just in time and said,, "It's okay, it's okay ! " Maybe it was the darkness, who knows. Hope the rest of the flights are easier.
We are suppose to leave LA at 11:20am [ only about 4 hours now ] with an estimated arrival in Chicago at 5:10pm or some such thing. We have another lay-over there, of about 4 hours, then we leave there at 9:10pm and land in Buffalo at about 12:05am = a little past midnight. Mike got us a room for the night, thank Goodness, as we will be a bit weary.
I will attempt to keep you posted along the way. Stay tuned and !! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
2nd pic: The dining area. Keep in mind that entire veranda outside can readily be used for dining also, as the weather is nearly always superb here.
Good Morning Friends,
Had a marvelous evening last night at the B&B known as Kalaekilohana. I think you can either view the place, or maybe it's just make reservations at www.kau-hawaii.com These guys apparently built much of this B&B [ you won't believe that statement if you SEE this building! ] & they are the perfect personalities to run such a beautiful establishment. What a fine final evening here in paradise. The wine flowed, the food was plenty AND being the perfect hosts, they even sent food home with us. Perfect guys, perfect.... thank you !
Today is all clean up and then prep to leave. We want to clean the guest house and wash all the bedding etc. [ which we don't have to do but we consider common courtesy ]. We will leave here for Kona around 3:30om, have a nice dinner [ I am avoiding saying "the last supper" ], then we will get to the Kona airport around 7:30pm, check in, go through security etc. and depart Kona at 9:20pm. We have a couple of rather lengthy lay-over's but that's fine. We would rather have extra time than to be rushed & risk missing a flight or some such thing.
I canNOT tell you how pleased I am that we have had this opportunity & that I bit the bullet [ with the help of some really GREAT & SUPPORTIVE friends ,,, thanks especially to the encouragement that I got from sweet Patti, wife of our Dear'O Steve Harris ] and finally did that which I said I never would ,,,, FLY ! Now be clear about this, I am by no means addicted to flying, but at least I can do it. Hallelujah !
There is a bit of sadness in the air here today, but it is overcome by having had the opportunity of being together these last few weeks. The sun is shining [ almost always ], the breeze is gentle [ unlike last week's trade winds ! ] and all is calm in paradise.
I will attempt to write you from one of the airports IF possible, although we couldn't arrange that on the way over. So, until we meet again, you KNOW the drill right ? ALOHA and ,,,,,,,,, !! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!
Monday, April 5, 2010
I just completed two postings with five pics each. Yesterday was fun but tiring, in fact Al was up & about, had his toast & tea, etc. and has gone back to lay down again. He is whipped also, and it's his birthday no less !
We are going back to the little house shortly [ where we stay ] and attempt to pack up another box of goodies to be mailed home. Hope it all fits.
Tonight we go up the road a piece to the house of friends who own the B&B ,,, for some homemade pizza and a little vino too. Of course today we will begin gathering things to pack up for the return trip. We leave Kona airport Tuesday night around 9:30pm our time [ 12:30am PST & 3:30am EST ]. We are scheduled to arrive at LAX around 5:30am Wednesday with a five hour or so layover. Then onto Ohare in Chicago. From Chicago we fly to Buffalo, arriving in Buffalo at approximately 12:05am Thursday. Long day. We have a room in Buffalo in which to stay for the rest of the night, then Connie will pick us up Thursday morning & we'll head to our little corner of the globe.
Yesterday whilst on our morning walk we discussed what we dreaded about returning home. MJ's answer was as I expected, but I think I shocked him with mine. Sorry, can't put it here, wouldn't go over well in certain circles. Perhaps it's time for some "house cleaning" or at the very least some "re-arranging" of some things in our life.
This is it for now. Another lovely day here, quieter too thank Goodness. Hopefully I will be back on here in the morrow before we depart. Until we meet again ,,,,,,, ALOHA! and as always loved ones ,,,,,,, !! KEEP A SONG IN YOUR HEART !!
Windmills of Your Mind Ping-Pong match going on in my head. Not a bad thing actually, simply unstoppable for the present ...