Wednesday, December 31, 2014

HAPPY
FINAL  DAY  
of  
2014
and
My Peeps!


     In a few hours we bid farewell to 2014.  What seems like a short while ago we welcomed 2014 as a "baby" not knowing  what  was in store for us.  Now as we prepare to lay 2014 to rest on Memory Lane, we look back and see ?   Challenges that we faced [some whether we wanted to or not ], disappointments, moments of great laughter as well as times of many tears [ right Sarah ? ],  visits with cherished friends ,  family moments that will live in our hearts forever,  situations that came at us out of the blue & may have knocked us for a total life shift [right again Sarah ? ] and either made us better or bitter.  "Life being life" times that we could never, ever, EVER have predicted [ Hi St. John's Episcopal Church ! ] as well as moments of farewell [ Ella Louise Ross, Maggie McNinch and more...].  There have been days/nights we'd just as soon had not happened [ correct A.S.L. ? ], and those we will look back on and smile a huge smile. 

     Perhaps how we will remember 2014 is how we CHOOSE to remember it.  I was struck by something recently [ and by starting this I totally expect some people to say " Oh Greg, we can easily be BOTH can't we?  It doesn't have to be either / or ! ] ... to me at least there seem to be two distinct types of people in this life.... the folks who favor " Silent Night "  and the folks who favor " ! Joy to the World ! " folks.  I love them both even though I favor the second of the two.  I have seen this over and Over and OVER this holiday season and I am keeping a close eye on it as we head out of the Christmas season.  

   This is not a debate over a slow song verses a more upbeat song.  But if you look  behind  the difference in the two songs, it's quite telling, at least to me.  I lean toward the ! Joy to the World !  side because, well I simply  cannot dwell on the " Silent Night " side too long.  Are you catching my drift here people ?  Without going into detail, I have had my own battles with what I call " The Demon of Despair "  and at times must be  very  careful of that which I hear, see, read, etc.  I am in no way putting down the " Silent Night " folks, just saying that for me ,,, give me joy, Joy, JOY to the WORLD ! [ And before anyone says it, especially but not limited to Michael Burke, I am NOT talking about "Jeremiah was a Bullfrog" ..... although I could do a blog post on THAT song one day.]

   So my hope & prayer for YOU is that, if all possible you will CHOOSE to look at the positive things you gleamed from 2014.  Try not to dwell on those things which brought you to your knees, [ unless of course it was to pray...which is always good ] but look to find the growth in you this past year  [ NOT like Greg's growth here =  BAM ! ] but hopefully we are all a bit more "seasoned", a tad [ sorry Johnson I owe you a dollar ] stronger,  perhaps somewhat wiser ,,,, and ready to face 2015 as best as we can.  I know I feel better about facing the New Year simply because I have YOU with me.  I hope you feel the same about me too.  We may not talk a lot [ at all ], or see one another a great deal [ rarely in fact ] but we  ARE  here for one another in that special "FACEBOOK" way, right ?
And all God's children said - - - - - - -    ! Amen and AMEN !




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So sorry to those [ Donna Holmes - Barb Stanton McNinch - Cheryl Stanton & Mrs. C. ] for the fact that I THOUGHT I'd hit the "Publish" button on last night's blog post, but instead it went into the "Draft" file.  As Cheryl put it " Well Gregory Shelley ,,,, at least we are paying attention!"   Indeed!
and
THANKS
to all who have commented on last night's post:

Donna Holmes

Barb Stanton McNinch

Cheryl Stanton

Mrs. C.

Meredith Chilson

Jennifer Presor

Jessica Hand

{ Barb Stanton McNinch is cracking me UP with the "Craig" postings on facebook. }

I posted yesterday's stats last night in the EVENTIDE posting,
but today's weight is
244.4
{ Down another  1.6  pounds ]
{ Total decrease so far of  5.6 pounds ]

Simply  IGNORE the rest of this post if my stats & facts bore you.
I will not be offended.

MONTH with lowest average w8 in 2014:   MARCH =       223.48
MONTH with highest average w8 in 2014: DECEMBER = 243.25

Lowest actual w8 in 2014:  March 20th =  221
Highest w8 in 2014:  December 27-29    = 250

In fact this very month of Dec. 2014 my w8 has varied from
235.6    on 12/5
to
250 on 12/27-29

Here are all the w8's for the last day of the year going back to 2006
[ I could go back to 1999 but don't want to search through all the w8 journals ]

{ Had just had two stents put at Strong Memorial in November 2006 }

2006 = 213.5
Down  53.5  pounds to
2007  =  160
Down  4  pounds to
2008  =  154
Up  8  pounds to
2009  =  162
Up  12  pounds to
2010  =  174
Up  15.5  pounds to
2011  =  189.5
Up  13.5  pounds to
2012  =  203
Up  27  pounds to
2013  =  230
Up  14.4  pounds to
2014  =  244.4

Rather easy to see where we were headed, hey?
[ Remember these were ALL w8's on December 31st of the above listed years.]

I am embarrassed that I have let my w8 get this out of control.
That being said, I must not look back in despair but ahead in hope.

THANKS to ALL of YOU for your words of ENCOURAGEMENT.
It sure does help !


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Since I may appear yet again today, 
for now,
I'm  outta  here.

THANKING YOU FOR YOUR TIME THIS TILL TILL NEXT TIME


KEEP  A  SONG
IN
YOUR  HEART!

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GOOD EVENING
FRIENDS.

Just a brief report on
First off
THANKS
for all the comments and tips on this morning's post:

ANNIE  TUCKER

DONNA HOLMES

DOTTIE GRAHAM

NANCY WRIGHT BROWN

KIM CARTER

JENNIFER PRESOR

40 Years Seasoned
ZENA  HORAIBI

LYNN MANNING

MRS. C.

MARY ELLEN MURRAY MANNING

CHERYL  STANTON

BARB STANTON McNINCH

MEREDITH CHILSON

KAY  HEANEY

ROBIN DEAN SMITH

And all who hit the "like"button also!

Today was not as easy as yesterday but then again that's to be expected, isn't it?   There will be some easy days ahead by generally speaking, each day could become a wee bit more difficult.  

HERE'S TODAY'S LITTLE CHALLENGE: 
 I was in the kitchen fixing some lunch [ high protein - low carbs and little if any sugar. ] I turned from the stovetop to the sink and something caught my eye: Right over one the countertop beside the microwave ------- PRINGLES  CHEESY CHEESE CHIPS.  Well IMMEDIATELY my mind RECALLS that there is also like 2 - 3 containers of chip dip in the 'fridge also. 

 INSTANTANEOUSLY my "naughty personality" = CRAIG pops up.

CRAIG:  " omG ...  it MUST be a sign from heaven.  Go for it G !

GREGORY: [ The most conservative of my three personalities ]  "You're an adult.  Act like it."

CRAIG:  " Cut the guy some slack. He's  deserves  a  little  something special Gregory, you PITA."

GREGORY: "Craig, I refuse to lower myself to your level, with name calling and all.  I will                                        however,  pray for you."

CRAIG:    " Oh for God's sake ........."

GREGORY:  "  EXactly ! "

GREG: [ The in-between personality, the one most often seen ]  "Knock it off, both of you.  He is capable of
              making up his own mind.  Now,,,, do you or do you not want to eat those Pringles ....."

CRAIG:  "......smothered  in French Onion Dip......"

GREGORY:  " I'm warning you Craig ..... "

CRAIG    " What ya gonna do,,,, pray me into a corner ? "

GREG:    " ENOUGH!  The both of you get out of here NOW ! "[ The other 2 leave, but not totally --- they are always near, or so it seems. ]  " Now think this through.  Can you stop at just a few?  You have one day behind you, are ready to give in already?  You have many people cheering you on and you could call just about any of them for support.  All this and more ... plus remember your mantra of this morning? " Nothing tastes as good as thin feels."  The choice is yours and I for one refuse to tell you what to do. "
The Pringles and French Onion Dip were not touched by me.
 One battle down.  
We will not even THINK about tomorrow.

I told you that yesterday we had approximately 1,100 calories.
What I didn't say was the carbs were 29 [ 26 net carbs ]
And sugar yesterday was  3

Today's calorie count is 1,400 [ a wee less ]
including  22 carbs [ 22 net carbs ]
And  3  sugars

I did not do multiple  exercise segments today as I had hoped.
I did one segment lasting  17:21  = 1/2 mile
77 calories expended.
The good thing about this is that yesterday's speed [ HA! ] was only 1.5
Today's was 1.5 / 1.6 / 1.7 / 1.8 / 1.9 / 2.0
Getting there.....it's just one heck of a slow process.

THAT'S IT FOR TONIGHT FOLKS.

SWEET  DREAMS TO YOU and YOURS.


THANKING YOU FOR YOUR TIME THIS TIME TILL NEXT TIME.


KEEP  A  SONG
IN
YOUR  HEART!

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Tuesday, December 30, 2014

GOOD  MORNING  MY  PEEPS!
" And the days dwindle down, to a precious few "
in
2 0 1 4
that is.

HOLY GUACAMOLE
2 0 1 5
  is nigh onto here.

Are  you  ready for a New Year?
ANY RESOLUTIONS?





WE seem to vary greatly,
from
" YES! A New Year & a opportunity to improve myself & my little world."
to
" Who the h_ll cares?  It's just another day after another night."

I rather think I'll stay closer to the first option than the later.
The later of the two is  QUITE CLOSE  to the  *J.S. column or so it seems to me.
[ * For complete info on what a J.S. is, see December 1st post on this blog.]

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HAPPY 44th Birthday
to
ANDREW SCOTT LEWIS
of
SCIO, NY
May this new YOU year bring you
all  that  you  so richly  deserve!

And of course today is
ZENA
HORAIBI'S
BIRTHDAY

YEAH  
ZENA  ANNA
Z is one of my "adopted nieces" so to speak, which makes me her
UG
Uncle Greg.
She is an 
INSPIRATION 
to me in ways she doesn't even realize.
When I look back on  2014  and the year it was,
one of the things that will always come to mind is
ZENA  ANNA  HORAIBI.
For it was in this year that I truly became friends with this
REMARKABLE  WOMAN.
She is
UNPREDICTABLE
JOY FILLED  &  JOY LOVING
PEOPLE LOVING
[ almost to a fault ]
KIND, CARING, COMPASSIONATE
and
FAITHFUL as well as FAITH FILLED.
and yet there is an inner core that holds so much more.
Those inner thoughts & feelings that she shares but rarely.
[ Maybe with Heather ? ]

I am blessed to call
ZENA  HORAIBI
my friend
and
my "niece".
May it  ALWAYS be so.

HAPPY
40TH
Z

LOVE YOU!

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Some of you caught last  night's  post.
THANK YOU
Jessica Orlando - Dottie Graham - Carissa Healy Knapp - 
Lisa Lewis Jeske - Jennifer Presor - Jessica Hand - Annie Tucker - Carlene Hardy ~ Cheryl Stanton ~ Meredith Chilson

THANKS 
also to those who commented on yesterDAY'S post:
Cheryl Stanton - Dottie Graham - Carissa Healy Knapp - 
Jessica Hand - Mrs. C. - Kris Young - Donna Holmes - 
Marcine Delo - Lee Ann Meehan - Barb Stanton McNinich - 
Annie Tucker -Lynn Manning - Gary Lewis

The reason I stopped after 15 minutes of treadmill last night was NOT: Breathing issues, chest pain and/or pain down my arm, nor was it my knees/joints [ that fat plaque ] but it was cramping in my calves.  [ Yes I did stretches first to warm up ] . That being said,  here's my:

GOALS  for TODAY:


1.]  Continue to eat sensibly.

2.] Eat when truly hungry, listening to my body. [ At all times ]

3.] Continue Food Journal = write everything down Greg !

4.] More than 15 minutes on Tm ... even if it's just slightly more.

      and possibly

5.]  More than one Tm session.  What's to say I can't try more after the calves [or whatever] calms down ?

And now
The Great Reveal
[ roles eyes like it's a big deal ]
YESTERDAY'S WEIGHT WAS
250
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Today's weight is
246
One thing I forgot to mention yesterday and to me it is almost  crucial  to my success.  When I dumped all the weight and became so much healthier before ... I made losing the weight a very, Very, VERY HIGH PRIORITY in my life.  I read books about losing weight & exercising, I became [ according to Sue Ross at least ] "obsessed" with losing weight.  I will keep that in mind as it REALLY worked in 1999 ,,, whatever it takes.   KNOW YOURSELF.  What works for Greg may not work for you [ if you are joining me on this journey ].  But what is CRUCIAL is for YOU to KNOW YOURSELF.  What your "triggers" are, whether you can eat sweets in moderation [ I can not ], whether carbs are your downfall [ yes for me ], know if you have a grazing period of the day [ yes for me = anytime post 2:00pm but esp. in the evening and in front of TV ].  Can you have non-healthy things in the house and stay out of them ? [ NO for me = oink ].  Can you take something healthy and still over indulge / bindge ? [ Oh yeah ! ].  What works for one person may not work for another person.  KNOW YOURSELF .  Again, when Mrs. C. brought to my mind that I  HAD  done this before [ many of you said that but ,,,, well, it's  MRS. C. for God's sake !  She is STILL to be listened to .... ]  my mind slipped back to 1999 and what WORKED.  Some things may have changed for me since then but MUCH remains the SAME.  KNOW YOURSELF & DON'T CHEAT YOURSELF.  We  DESERVE  to be healthier, happier and more ALIVE !


For me
this works.


And I just may have a another posting tonight.
ANYTHING that keeps me from grazing.
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THANKING YOU FOR YOUR TIME THIS TIME TILL NEXT TIME


KEEP  A  SONG
IN
YOUR  HEART!


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Monday, December 29, 2014

GREETINGS
BROS and PEEPS

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Was going to wait and post this tomorrow morning, but what the heck.  Some of you will see it and some will miss it altogether.  BUT before we go any further, here's your symbol warning of what is coming next.
I was doing some Tm [treadmill] a while ago,
after my inner "Craig" got after me
and 
I had an
NO
not that kind
MORE LIKE
I was thinking about something Mrs. C. had written that "exercise is as addictive as food " which it very well can be as I've felt that endorphin rush in the past = YOWSER.  Mrs. C is correct, you simply do NOT want to quit.  But that led me to think of another comment she had made " You know you can do this.  You have done it before."

THERE   IT   WAS!

If I could go through this is 1999 not knowing HOW things were going to work out [ even though I had a good nutritionist helping me in Olean, NY ] and I not only made it to a slimmer, healthier Greg,,,,,,,
what makes me think I can't conquer this [ danged ] challenge again ?  I am blessed with all that knowledge that I did NOT have when I started back in '99  PLUS  I've got y'all rooting for me [ and some joining me  wink  wink   ]  on this journey.  DANG.   Plus if I am even half the man of faith that I pray I am ,,,, the Guy upstairs is with me too. 

Many moons ago my Dear O' Connie Lewis brought a devotional phrase to
St. Mary's Choir rehearsal one Wednesday night,
it read as follows:

" He never said it would be easy,
He said it would be worth it."

Amen.

I have never forgotten that phrase.


Make no mistake, this journey will not be easy.
There will be times of wailing & gnashing of teeth.
There will be days of despair & anguish
but the finish line will be well worth every challenging moment.
How do I know this?

Because I have been there before.

I have felt the rush of pounds coming off my body 
[ maybe not quite as quick as I'd like, but off none-the-less ]

I have had the orgasmic feeling of NEEDING to find clothes small enough for my new body.

I have basked in the glow of MJ calling me "skinny _ _ _ _ _"

I have felt that pure endorphin rush, almost drug like, of a new exercise goal reached.
When you've  dared  push extra, EXTRA hard & WOOOOOSH you are in another world.

I have reveled in people walking right passed me & not recognizing my thin body, 
until I spoke their name.

I have laid in bed at night hardly able to wait until my regular morning weigh in.
[ Many times dropping to my knees saying " Thank YOU Jesus ! ]

I have had that GRAND FEELING of knowing that I was in MUCH better health
than I had been in a very, Very, VERY long time.

ALL this,,,,, and much more is but waiting 'round the corner.

GO  FOR   IT.


Now, about the treadmill.
I used to do a ton of miles outside AND inside, as I've stated recently.
TONIGHT?
I could only do
[ get ready to puke ]
fifteen minutes.
At.   A.  Very.  Slow.  Pace.
The highest I could do was 1.5 mph.
PATHETIC.
I used to warm up at 4.00 and go up from there.
BUT
  I.   WILL.   NOT.   GIVE.   UP.

Pathetic = yes.
Gonna stay that way = nope.

Calories today were approximately
1,100.
Hush.
It is not too low.
I know me as you should know you = quite well.
Some days it may be higher, if I feel so inclined.

For today
I  AM  HAPPY.


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THANKING YOU FOR YOUR TIME THIS TIME TILL NEXT TIME


KEEP  A  SONG
IN
YOUR  HEART!


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HAPPY
DECEMBER
And 
HAPPY 73rd Birthday
to
my Brother-In-Law
RONALD  LEE  LEWIS
[ married to Marlene for 53 years as of last November ]

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GOOD MORNING MY PEEPS!
Everyone ready to have a marvelous Monday ?
Come on, we can do it.
TWOgether we can do just about ANYthing.

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First off
I APOLOGIZE
for not having a
"Part B"
posting yesterday.
The day got away from me.

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    Had a super-great day at St. John's yesterday morning.  MJ assured me that they all KNEW they didn't have to be there until  10:30am  instead of the usual 9:30am.  He ASSURED me of this fact.
Wellllllll, apparently not everyone got the "memo" as most of them showed up for a 9:30am rehearsal and we came in at 10:22am.  They were ever so gracious about it but I still felt like a fool.  At any rate, yesterday was "Lessons & Carols" with Eucharist and all went smoothly.  Truly enjoyed every minute of the Service AND the coffee hour that followed.  I love, Love, LOVE hearing people "stories",,, how they ended up at St. John's or basically any "life experiences"  Each of us have our own "story" and it fascinates me when someone shares part of their "story".  Such was the case a couple of times yesterday.  I felt blessed indeed.  [ Thanks Kathy.  Thanks Ruth. ]
   I think I will take some pics of St. John's so you can actually SEE what I see from where I sit on the organ bench. [ As well as what I can't see ].  I have kind of an archway pillar that blocks almost all of my sight of the sanctuary, but I can HEAR most everything.   Just before we begin the Service there is a time of giving thanks publicly [ IF you feel so inclined, no one is forced to do so ] and I am enthralled at listening to what people are thankful for.  It remains one of the highlights of Sunday morning church for me.  Sometimes there are "ohhs & ahhs" from the congregation and sometimes applause for the various things that are shared  What a marvelous sharing time this is each and every week.  Thanks Rev. Carol Stewart & Tad Manske !
  My "Halo Gal" [ M.E.M.M.] was there yesterday also and came up to the organ after Service for a brief moment.  She ALWAYS makes my heart sing.  Thank you "Halo Gal".... I love you M.E.M.M.
THANK YOU 
ST. JOHN'S EPISCOPAL CHURCH

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ALERT!   ALERT!   ALERT!
I am going to discuss the weight / food / eating issues now.
If you do not wish to read about them, skip below to the regular farewell I post each day



Hereafter the above symbol will be the sign that we are about to discuss
" THAT SUBJECT "
Okay?
First off THANKS! to all who commented with their support and thoughts.  EACH and EVERY one of them were / are deeply appreciated, including, but not limited to:
[ I am aware I listed most of these yesterday, but they mean SOOO much ]
MARCINE DELO
JESSICA HAND
MEREDITH CHILSON
MRS. C.
LISA JESKE
NANCY WRIGHT BROWN
DONNA HOLMES
ANNIE TUCKER
CARRIE JEFFERDS
GARY  LEWIS 
CARISSA HEAYL KNAPP
KRIS  YOUNG
LYNN WINTERHALTER MANNING
TERRI ROSS
LEE ANN MEEHAN

YOU are ALL such an INSPIRATION to me.

      So here's the facts:  Yes I HAVE done this before.  Took off nearly half of me = 15 years ago, when I was a mere 45 YO.   I had  JUST  stopped smoking in January and by March/ April was very ill [ remember that Sue Ross & I were in the midst of another one of our "WARS" and I truly thought she had put an Italian curse on me! ], come to find out I had Type II Diabeties.  My numbers were SO high that the glucometer would not give a number, instead it said " HIGH ".... I was officially diagnosed on my BD of that year.  Dr. wanted to hospitalize me immediately but we compromised and I made trips to Olean three times a week [ later two times a week, then once per week....] in order to wrestle this under control. [ That previous November my breathing was so bad from the smoking that I  HAD  to quit in order to simply breath]  It  seemed to be one thing after another at that time.  BUT talk about a curse [ no not Sue's ! ] turning into a blessing.   I began the l-o-n-g arduous journey of losing the weight.  It seemed like it took forever but in actuality it did not.   I went from about 270 - 275 [ in February =  pre-diagnosis of diabetes ... by time of diagnosis I was already losing weight but didn't know why.  All I knew was that I was drinking 3-5 gallons of water a day and I felt yucky ALL the time.  After a huge meal I would lay down and Mike couldn't wake me up ... nearly a coma according to the Dr. ] So by the fall I was down to 150 [ and going still lower ,,,, ahhhhhhh those were the days ! ] .

   Yes I have kept Food Journals, in fact I collect them like some folks collect baseball cards or antiques.  Yes I know that exercise is  vital  to the process.  Yes I have been on prednisone [ since 1976 when diagnosed with Crohn's Disease ]  BUT  I was able to take off the weight before and I was on prednisone then also.  Yes it helps to be accountable to someone.   Yes not only have I kept a Food Journal for YEARS, I have a blotter for my desk that is also a monthly calendar.  I have written down my weight for each month using the blotter calendar since  2006  [ Food Journals go back even further,,, to 1999 ] and I have  KEPT  each and every month of these  pages,  BY YEAR  and can reach them at any moment.  ALSO, I average each WEEK of the month, as well as each month's average [ adding up the weeks, dividing, etc.  as well as  adding each day's weight to the next for a contiunous count.... then at the end of each month I take those two numbers, add both together, divide by two ...... for NINE years = 108 months.   On top of this I have yearly SHEETS that I write down each days weight on,,,, so at a quick glance I can see what I weighed on any particular day going back to 2006. As I said, the Food Journals go back even further to 1999. ]  In most Food Journals, particuarly the first five to seven years [ 1999 - 2006 or so ] I can see what I ATE  on any particular day as well as how much and what type of exercise I did that day.  

     So I needs must ask myself:  WHAT CHANGED / HAPPENED that precipitated this tremendous weight gain ?
1.]  INJURIES : If memory serves it was my ankle at first.  This went on for quite some time, was very painful to walk, even Tm [Treadmill ].  Took a  LONG  time to get that one healed up.  This was followed [ not too long thereafter ] with a shoulder injury [ that went to the ER for --- only to discover later on that I should have had it operated on BUT "someone forgot to get the X-rays to someone" and, well you know how THAT goes.  Was much pain with that one also.
2.] I let myself fall into the "likin' to eat" pattern again.  Especially in the evenings.  Watching TV.
I am an  EXCELLENT  "morning dieter".  Let the mid-afternoon come hence and oh boy,,,, we pick up speed clear through supper and into the evening.  GRAZER!

   What was different in 1999 as compared to 2014?
1.]  MJ's schedule.  He was working nights [ which was a P.I.T.B. ] but when he got home we would do our walks.  WONDERFUL walks.  Sometimes just two miles, most often three plus miles, later on quite often five miles and about once a month or so ten miles.  LOVED IT !  Incorporated some light jogging into it .... cooler than cool  
2.]  AGE.  I detest saying this but adding  fifteen  years  does tend to make things more challenging.  What was a "hoot and a holler" at forty-five is not so " hooty" at age sixty.

Those seem to be the main ingredients that have led to the tonnage in front of me [ literally ].  What I MUST confront is this:
How  IMPORTANT  is it to lose this weight ?
CRUCIAL

How much to I desire to lose the weight ?
OH BABY - YOU HAVE  NO  IDEA

Am I prepared to meet this challenge?
There's the rub.

If not prepared, why not ?
Honestly?
SCARED

What am I scared of ?
F-A-I-L-U-R-E
[ yet again ]

I have  everything  at my fingertips to meet this challenge.  I have done it in the past [ as Mrs. C. gently reminded me ] and I  CAN  do it again.  One is thinking I simply must grab the Nike phrase
 I am relatively sure that I can get through a couple of days, maybe even three days,
but come the forth day, or God-only-knows = the weekend.
Oh boy.

STOP IT GREGORY!
TACKLE TODAY.
ONLY TODAY


OKAY
Today's goal:
To try some 
EXERCISE
[  even if I have to tread like an old  f_rt  ]
and
to
EAT  HEALTHY

Will report back later, probably tomorrow but ya never know.
TODAY'S  WEIGHT
250


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THANKING YOU FOR YOUR TIME THIS TIME TILL NEXT TIME


KEEP  A  SONG
IN
YOUR  HEART!


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Windmills of Your Mind Ping-Pong match going on in my head. Not a bad thing actually, simply unstoppable for the present ...