[ Yesterday's TDL grade: Incomplete ]
Today's w8: 238
Red Letter Day. It started out as if it could have been so, but somewhere along the way it made a 180 degree turn.
I have a tendency to feel ashamed because of this, but another side of me, [esp. after reading your responses to yesterday's post ] feels a bit more sympathetic to what's happened in the past four months. For now, I'll go with the 2nd of those two "feelings". For now.
Of course one of my biggest concerns is that I will use the health challenges as an excuse and not ever get back to where I want to be. I cannot let that happen. Cannot and will not.
This latest deal with the kidney stone has brought its own challenges, not the least of which one needs to visit the toilet a LOT. I have spent most of the past few nights on the sofa so as not to constantly disturb MJ with my getting up and down ALL night. [ Seriously, it occurs every 30 - 75 minutes.] Once MJ was up at 5:15a.m. I went to BED and rested until 6:30a.m. ]
Yesterday I also attempted to cut back on the pain meds, which is good, but might have cut back too far. Today I am increasing them again slightly. Pain is so tiring.
Today my TDL looks more like this:
Tomorrow includes a morning Dr.'s appt. as well as an afternoon Dr.s appt. I might not get to y'all until mid-day. Time will tell.
Let's move on past this insipidness, shall we ?
1.] Jim [Dad] Feldbauer: To hear him laugh so often and so heartedly was incredible, to me at least. For MJ and GK to have gone four decades with little acknowledgement from him, the sound of Jim's laughter still astounds and delights us every time we hear it.
2.] Jim [Dad] Feldbauer: One morning some of us were having morning coffee on the deck, discussing what each of us might be doing that day, when out of the kitchen we hear Jim singing. [He has a really good voice BTW.] All talk ceased on the deck, we seemed to non-verbally agree that this was a "moment" to cherish. Words cannot begin to express how closely we still hold those moments in our heart[s]. Thanks for the gift, God.
3.] Jimmy [brother] Feldbauer: Most of you know "The Story" of our involvement or lack thereof, with MJ's family. Keeping that history in mind, MJ [the eldest "child"] and Jimmy [the youngest "child"] are still getting to know one another. There's a little over 25 years between MJ and Jimmy. There was one evening in particular that "the kids": MJ, Mary Jo, Kate and Jimmy were sharing stories of their youth at 7 Martin Street. What a fascinating evening. Jimmy, being a quarter of century younger than MJ, seemed intrigued at the youth that MJ had experienced, compared to his own. They were some things that both had gone through [The Bell] but even more that they both found different, yet quite informative.
As we all sat there on the deck, I was overtaken by the fact that any of this was actually happening. MJ and I had been the "Israelites" [40 years in the desert] for so long, that the family trip to Cape Cod was like a dream sequence from which one hoped we'd never wake up. There were many moments like this throughout that week. A blessing for which one can never thanks God enough, ya know. And when I stop to think how much that week meant to MJ, the tears of gratefulness still flow.
Here's a song that I can easily see being on my mind come January or February 2018. I dedicate it to all who went on the Cape Cod trip but especially to:
Michael - Mary Jo - Kate - Jimmy.
This is it for now folks, am getting tired, believe it or not.
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